Yep…yet again I’ve been so absent from this blog. All social media really. Except Instagram. Who can ignore that? Anyways, I’ve been “busy” with work. I always say I’ve been busy, but really I’m just tired of sitting all day while my brain slowly turns to mush that when I get home I literally want to continue my sloth-like life and do nothing.
Job has been okay. I’m being trained on phones and it just makes me feel incredibly stupid. I have no problem talking to people on the phone and being super nice and customer service-y. It’s the damn program that is the most difficult part. I’ve been training for 2 weeks and it’s not sticking. I was honestly and truly hours away from walking out yesterday (my boss was super nice though and assured me that he would continue the training process for as long as I need) I was just tired of feeling stupid. It feels like I will never get this. I was tearful all day. Never letting those tears spill out of course…*gasp* how unprofessional that would be!
Let me rant. I hate, hate, hate how true authenticity is squashed the second you walk into the workplace. Professionality baffles and annoys me. Why can’t we all be ourselves? Why can’t we openly say in interviews “This job will probably blow, but I need the money”? Why can’t I cry at work when my day sucks? Why does “good” customer service even exist? Why can’t I tell someone they are being an asshole and until they pull the stick out of their ass I will refuse to help them? All these questions.
Anyways, on to the title of this blog. The biggest lie I always tell occurs during the stupid interview process. Everyone lies. Mine is…I’m a “quick learner”. What a load of BS. I’m the slowest MF when it comes to learning new software, and I don’t adapt well to change. Again, I wish I could say this in an interview without diminishing my chances of getting the job. I’m so tired of lying. Of smiling when I don’t want to. Of being sugary sweet to mean people.
This was a pessimistic blog today. What can I say?