To those who don’t know, I decided to pack up all my things and move on down to Los Angeles. Let me say, you haven’t really lived until you’ve driven 17 hours in 2 days, all while being serenaded by a very unhappy orange tabby cat, to the beats of the new Taylor Swift album. Only when sweet, sweet Siri whispered those 3 magic words “You have arrived” was I able to take a deep breath and notice what had been around me for the last couple of hours. Glorious palm trees. That’s right, WillyBean and I survived the road trip. He was not a happy camper, and the kitty Xanax did nothing to ease his discomfort. I feel awful, but he is such a trooper and has already bounced back from the ordeal. And look! He still loves me!
So…we’re here. And honestly I need a big kick in the ass to get myself out of my brother’s apartment (where I’m staying until I figure out life details). I’m feeling extremely fearful about driving and parking. This isn’t news to those who know me. Thus far I’ve traveled on foot to: 2 grocery stores, a 7-11, and a coffee shop, and by car: Target, and 2 potential apartments.
Tomorrow, I have a job interview as a barista at a coffee/chocolate shop. I’m not even nervous for the interview, just the drive to Beverly Hills. Oh yeah, and I also don’t have any interview clothes with me. Yikes!
Basically, I’m just lacking confidence right now. I have a friend, Ri, who is really good at dealing with my unsure feelings. She will excitedly yell different mantras and manifestations at me, until I join along or just start laughing. If she were here I imagine she’d shout in her sweet sing-songy voice: “I AM SMART! I AM A SAFE AND CONFIDENT DRIVER! I LOVE DRIVING! THE UNIVERSE LOVES ME! EVERYTHING IS WORKING IN MY FAVOR!”
I think meditation, positive affirmations, mantras, laughing, breathing, etc. all work. So here’s a tip from Amy Uncharted to myself and you today: Use the silence to regroup, to prepare yourself so you can step out into that unknown world with more peace. Yes, it’s all unknown and that’s okay. Tomorrow, let’s meditate.
– 𝒜𝓂𝓎 𝒰𝓃𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓇𝓉𝑒𝒹